09 December, 2009

Patience is not one of my virtues but

I think I've hit a wall. I've been here just over a month and we really haven't stopped since we got here. Before that there was the chaos of sorting out your life and packing it up for a few years in two months. We have achieved a lot since we got here - found a home, a school, furnished said home which is ongoing, orientated ourselves, gone to work, started to make friends, made quince jelly. Part of me thinks I should start joining stuff and finding places to study cookery or photography or Spanish or whatever. And part of me wants to go to bed for the rest of the year. Today I completely forgot that it was the PTA meeting at school, which is unlike me, and I felt a bit guilty about not going when I saw the meeting on my calendar. And then I thought why am I feeling guilty? What is wrong with just taking a break for a bit and working out where I am and how to make our lives here work on a basic eat-sleep-work-play basis before engaging more fully in other stuff.

So. I am not going to join stuff until after Christmas. I am going to stop thinking that I've got to get on with LIFE and realize that I have time and I should allow myself to relax a bit. It's been a crazy few months and I think I've deserved a rest. Of course I still have to buy a tree, presents, the goose and so on, but PTAs and finding evening classes etc. can wait.


just Gai said...

It's not easy saying no, but there are times when it is the right thing to do, and it sounds to me like you've reached that moment.

Sitting down with a nice cup of tea is a good start!

mountainear said...

It's called taking stock - or as my boys would say 'chill mum, chill'.

Women are not much good at it though are they? We rush around fetching and carrying and making and arranging. (Teemin' and ladlin'grandad called it - if that makes sense.)

Just enjoy being there - plenty of time to do all those tempting things.